My journey...

Guess the best way to start off this story is by saying that Shah Rukh is a huge part of my life. He’s as necessary for my survival as oxygen, food, and water. It sounds childish on my part to say how my birth coincides with his film debut with a week of gap in between but I guess it’s quite valid in some case. Having been born a week post Deewana’s release, I now believe I was destined to the privilege of knowing and loving Shah Rukh. Couple of years passed by and we entered a new millennium, my love for him took on a life of its own. For those early years, I loved him as an actor mostly. Although I had access to net but I didn’t utilize it to discover how SRK off the reel is until Kal Ho Na Ho released.  From 2004 to 2008, I began to understand him beyond his films. And that has become a part of my daily life.

My first film in theater EVER was Main Hoon Na and it was such a magical experience. I really experienced Shah Rukh for the first time in my life. Before I only heard that he can make people cry and laugh in the span of three hours but who knew I’d also get to experience the same. It felt as if he controlled my emotions for 3 hours. From then on, I have never ever missed a single movie of his in theater except Paheli because I had some personal problems.  I take lessons from his films and apply them in real life which has actually helped me shape my personality for the better. This is something normally no one does because, after all, films are for mere entertainment.

When you love a celebrity, you are bound to dream of meeting him or her. I never dreamed of meeting him, but it is a wish. A wish which had more than 30 days of chance to be fulfilled but circumstances held me back. In 2009, he spent over a month shooting in San Francisco area, an area I lived in for 8 years. I might not have even tried to meet him but I could feel his presence around because he made that summer into something extraordinary with his presence. You know when an angel is present somewhere around you, it just feels good and the air is warm. That was how June-July 2009 was for me. During that time, I actually helped other fans who I had just found online on youtube to meet SRK because I would track his whereabouts. But even today, I feel disappointed in myself for not making the effort to meet him. 

I have my own mini SRK center at home which I recently made where I keep all DVDs, magazines, books, CDs and a little more. Besides all that, he’s one of the reasons why I’d like to be alive. From a certain time in life on, I made up my mind that I don’t wish to miss out on him. I do not know of a life without him and the thought itself is nonexistent in my own mind. My family calls me SRK’s mother because I care about him madly. His pain is my pain, his sorrows are my sorrows, and his happiness is my happiness. Most importantly, although we do not know or met each other, I have an unusual trust in him. It’s not the trust of him not kissing on screen or quitting smoking. I find such stuff quite silly, but he and I share a different sort of trust. It’s unexplainable.

I have faced a lot of criticism from people who go by what the media feeds them and cannot make the effort to get to know Shah Rukh like I have done. They think he’s just an actor, not someone worth to spend so much time on. It’s their loss completely. Shah Rukh is the most intellectual man in the entertainment industry. No wait, he’s not only intelligent but handsome, caring, loving, understanding, protecting…basically he has it all that every woman can ever want in a man. But that does not make me envy his wife, Gauri. Instead, I want to be like him. He works hard, so I try to work hard too, no matter what it is. He cares for his family and friends; I also try my best to do the same with my family and friends. He does good deeds silently due to religion…well since we share the same religion, I do so of course. It might sound weird because I am a female after all, but he is my role model more than my dream man. I love him dearly and to death.