It's been a while since I have written anything about Shah Rukh. Well of course there have not been anything new that would be worthy of a mention on this blog. Just kidding, I have been lazy, that's all.
I have been missing him ever since he left twitter, feels like as if I've been cutoff from a big portion of my life. I know, I shouldn't be feeling like this because there was a pre-Twitter time as well. But guess what? I'm spoiled. And I can't help but not miss him. I do respect his decision to stay away from social networks and let his team sort out everything. But I am a fan of the man himself, not his team. It's alright, life will go on anyway.
So IPL started with KKR winning their first game and losing the second. By now, I should be used to everything (as usual) but a defeat is a defeat. I hate losing. It is one of the worst feelings ever, makes me wanna cry. Here's hoping they improve in the coming matches.
I actually feel very blah as I write this. I feel very empty. Past few weeks, I have been busy organizing my facebook pages that are dedicated to him of course and also creating what I had initiated 2 years back, the playgirl magazine. It is finished and published online. Took me a lot of time, thinking and hard work to create it. It is something very new for me because I personally have never looked at Shah Rukh and think, "oh he's so sexy and handsome" until very recently. So it is quite an amateur like edition and I kept Shah Rukh's own dignity in mind while creating it. I admit, I had plenty of times where feelings started arousing for him (but I controlled and still don't envy Gauri) because he is really God's best creation and the first man whom I have explored so much via images. LOL I know this sounds damn awkward but if you were in my shoes, trust me, you would feel the same.
I will confess another thing, I love hunting for his photos online, older photos. Then I dump it all in my facebook page, RetroSRK. It is fun to discover the many events he attended over the years. He has been associated with so many brands, causes, etc. It feels like an event in India is incomplete without his presence. He's the eye candy of every event he graces with his presence.
Oh yes, I never wrote about my mini SRK center. It actually is shamefully very mini, considering how long I have been his fan. There are selected DVD's, actually nearly complete collection from 2004 onwards. Posters too which I haven't put up yet. The OSO ones would be hung before in our garage but not anymore...we've moved too frequently in recent years. The autographed Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi CD is still in its original bubble envelope. I still cannot forget, Jan 24, 2009 when it had arrived, TOTALLY unexpected and it was not even something I was eager to win. A wise friend has said it right, when you don't expect, that's when things start happening. Anyway, then I have this Ra.One journal that I have filled with a few newspaper articles and tons of pictures. Those pictures are my favorites. I chose them carefully over the last 5 years. Of course, Shah Rukh's gift is still with me, a little vial of perfume that is now discontinued. I also kept the envelope in which I would have put a letter for him and mailed it but I never did because I was confused about his address and I still am. Theater ticket stubs, magazines, a dard-e-disco decorative plate, books, all are in there. I am shocked they all fit in, considering how small the center itself is. I will keep improving it as much as I can.
What else am I missing? I have been fangirling even today over that JTHJ video chat where he answered two of my questions. Oh my, he made me fall in love with my own name. My family tells me that Shah Rukh knows me well by now and I can't help but laugh. I am just one fan in the crowd of millions. Seriously I am an ordinary fan, not following or leading, but just lost. Yes, I am lost in his fandom. It is most of the time, big, boring, too competitive, always demanding, you need to watch your words to avoid embarrassment and rude too (I am too sensitive). Best to keep shut or just take a break or be independent. I try to be independent as much as I can. Actually I no longer even talk about him in the social networks I am a part of. I don't know why but I am losing interest from this too big of a crowd.
God knows when Chennai Express will release, I still await for a official announcement. No promo yet either. Just a new still recently came out which reminded me of Koyla for a few reasons. I love the whole excitement when a movie's promo comes out or the release date is approaching. I have already collected pictures and videos to celebrate Shah Rukh and Deepika's pair. Can't wait to post them and free space from my computer!
Well, guess time for me to get back to my work...until another time, bye.
I have been missing him ever since he left twitter, feels like as if I've been cutoff from a big portion of my life. I know, I shouldn't be feeling like this because there was a pre-Twitter time as well. But guess what? I'm spoiled. And I can't help but not miss him. I do respect his decision to stay away from social networks and let his team sort out everything. But I am a fan of the man himself, not his team. It's alright, life will go on anyway.
So IPL started with KKR winning their first game and losing the second. By now, I should be used to everything (as usual) but a defeat is a defeat. I hate losing. It is one of the worst feelings ever, makes me wanna cry. Here's hoping they improve in the coming matches.
I actually feel very blah as I write this. I feel very empty. Past few weeks, I have been busy organizing my facebook pages that are dedicated to him of course and also creating what I had initiated 2 years back, the playgirl magazine. It is finished and published online. Took me a lot of time, thinking and hard work to create it. It is something very new for me because I personally have never looked at Shah Rukh and think, "oh he's so sexy and handsome" until very recently. So it is quite an amateur like edition and I kept Shah Rukh's own dignity in mind while creating it. I admit, I had plenty of times where feelings started arousing for him (but I controlled and still don't envy Gauri) because he is really God's best creation and the first man whom I have explored so much via images. LOL I know this sounds damn awkward but if you were in my shoes, trust me, you would feel the same.
I will confess another thing, I love hunting for his photos online, older photos. Then I dump it all in my facebook page, RetroSRK. It is fun to discover the many events he attended over the years. He has been associated with so many brands, causes, etc. It feels like an event in India is incomplete without his presence. He's the eye candy of every event he graces with his presence.
Oh yes, I never wrote about my mini SRK center. It actually is shamefully very mini, considering how long I have been his fan. There are selected DVD's, actually nearly complete collection from 2004 onwards. Posters too which I haven't put up yet. The OSO ones would be hung before in our garage but not anymore...we've moved too frequently in recent years. The autographed Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi CD is still in its original bubble envelope. I still cannot forget, Jan 24, 2009 when it had arrived, TOTALLY unexpected and it was not even something I was eager to win. A wise friend has said it right, when you don't expect, that's when things start happening. Anyway, then I have this Ra.One journal that I have filled with a few newspaper articles and tons of pictures. Those pictures are my favorites. I chose them carefully over the last 5 years. Of course, Shah Rukh's gift is still with me, a little vial of perfume that is now discontinued. I also kept the envelope in which I would have put a letter for him and mailed it but I never did because I was confused about his address and I still am. Theater ticket stubs, magazines, a dard-e-disco decorative plate, books, all are in there. I am shocked they all fit in, considering how small the center itself is. I will keep improving it as much as I can.
What else am I missing? I have been fangirling even today over that JTHJ video chat where he answered two of my questions. Oh my, he made me fall in love with my own name. My family tells me that Shah Rukh knows me well by now and I can't help but laugh. I am just one fan in the crowd of millions. Seriously I am an ordinary fan, not following or leading, but just lost. Yes, I am lost in his fandom. It is most of the time, big, boring, too competitive, always demanding, you need to watch your words to avoid embarrassment and rude too (I am too sensitive). Best to keep shut or just take a break or be independent. I try to be independent as much as I can. Actually I no longer even talk about him in the social networks I am a part of. I don't know why but I am losing interest from this too big of a crowd.
God knows when Chennai Express will release, I still await for a official announcement. No promo yet either. Just a new still recently came out which reminded me of Koyla for a few reasons. I love the whole excitement when a movie's promo comes out or the release date is approaching. I have already collected pictures and videos to celebrate Shah Rukh and Deepika's pair. Can't wait to post them and free space from my computer!
Well, guess time for me to get back to my work...until another time, bye.
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